such sorrow...
February 19, 2009
Happy belated Valentines Day to all the single pathetic losers out there!!! It's okay, you're not alone...we can all be losers together!
What a big week it has been. Unfortunately the first thing that comes to mind as an Australian as the bushfires currently raging across out beautiful state. I think at last report almost 2000 homes destroyed and 200 people deceased with that expected to climb to over 300. Every day I'm reduced to tears because of this, to say the fire has claimed 200 lives really isn't anything until photos are shown...that these people aren't just a number but rather a father, mother, brother, sister, friend or neighbour. To think some of these fires have been caused by arsonists absolutely disgusts me. As bad as it would be losing a loved one, losing them so unnecessarily would be gut wrenching. As sad as it is there's always some good which comes of it, the generosity has been so uplifting.
My resignation letter is ready to be handed over. Now I've just got to wait for the right moment. It's weird thinking of life without a job, but for some reason I think it'll be a massive weight lifted off my shoulders. Even now not having been to work for two months I dread going back, all the relearning required, and trying to fit in again with all the newbies stresses me out...it's constantly playing on my mind. I wish everybody I worked with were arses, it would make leaving SOOOO much easier!
Was asked this week if I was interested in going speed dating!!! After the initial shock and some thought I've basically declined the offer. I don't think rocking up to a venue ready to meet potentials and have my opening lines "Hi, I'm Brettley. I'm 30, still at Uni and still living at home with my folks" would be very appealing to the opposite sex. I'm hardly decent provider material and would feel like I'm holding some poor girl back. I reckon the most I could offer any girl is a headache bordering on a severe migraine!!! It kinda makes me sad because all the consequences of some poor life decisions over the years which seemed like no big deal at the time are all becoming apparent. Maybe one day I'll be able to attend such an event with my head held high, until then it's only thoughts of what could've been.
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